Tuesday, March 11, 2008!
HandWritten on; 11:18 PM
i need to mugggggg
productively.
wellwell i studied organic chem for like 2 whole days and today had a class test and i freaking failed it raaahhhhhhhh so horrible i think there's probably something VERY wrong with the way i study. and i cant seem to focus and concentrate as i grow older. like last time in p school everything was much easier, maybe due to the extremely little content then compared to now but now its like its getting very very very very very hard to get me down to studying. and whenever i study i'll think like is this going to help at all is it of any use. thats why my grades are so bad. thats why i have zero idea how im going to take As. thats why i was so traumatised on friday when i see the seniors getting back their results slips (and i saw so many of them with straight As) i dont know what is going to happen one year later.
it suddenly doesnt make sense to me why do we have to mug so hard so hard, to get this result slip, and in the end if you dont do well, it will feel so bad cause we know we mugged. we studied. and if you dont do well, there is nothing you can do but to ACCEPT IT. and the problem is it doesnt do you justice. you dont get to see your scripts, you dont get to see what went wrong, you dont have ANY evidence of any sort to convince you that you're not good enough, .. its just a piece of paper. with alphabets. which you HAVE to accept. which is going to determine the rest of your life. does it make any sense to you.
i have to mug.
[huangcheng on sat, liked the last play best, thought that the first 2 were rather slow-paced it makes the audience like bored and disappointed when the plot doesnt develop. it was a great night though, it has been VERY VERY long since i went out with yueyang. and so on sat it was yueyang jiayuan xianhuan and me. it felt very very nice, you have good friends beside you and everything and there is just endless stuff to talk about, to laugh together with. it was a simple night, we met up, dinner at thai express, walked to victoria theatre, watched 3 plays, went home. but it felt so good. aaaa, good times (: (: as yueyang and jiayuan were figuring the way to raffles place mrt, xianhuan and i were trying to take photos!! THE VIEW IS SO GOOD aaaa the bridge and everything and you look up and see all the skyscrapers wowooowwoow hahahha really very nice. and xianhuan was like "OCBC BUILDING" haha you know if you write your wish on a piece of paper and let it glide down with the wind from the top of the ocbc building, it will come true? haha, that was from The Leap Years. :D
this photo is damn nice la I TOOK IT hahahah aspiring photographer. :D
lol after that jiayuan told me i look retarded taking photos cause im like a singaporean and i look like a tourist and there are many hc people behind us going to the mrt station too then i'll look very very retarded so i stopped. haha. laughed like mad on the train at yueyang and her sportswomanship LOL and at xianhuan's blog. aaaa. good times good times (:
erm some photos of cny super outdated, after this i shall go watch tv (like so relaxing-.-)
MY AH MA. :) :)
i like the above photo very much, too bad im not in it HAHA
my xiaojiu yi jia ren. :D
da jiu (my wonderful uncle) and da gim. :D
Yay cousins unite (: (:
hahaha yay. i think the camera is such a wonderful invention. :D how i wish cameras were as easily and widely used years ago too.. document my childhood days hahah (: it will be quite nice to look back on them. like nowadays sometimes when i think about what happened when i was young, most of them they only exist in my memories. haha. oh well. haha now i finaally have photos of all us cousins together. (:
